Today during break, we bumped into each other in the hall.
"I'm sorry, but you're not sixteen..." and I don't know if I imagined it, but maybe he looked a little sad.
"It's okay."
"It's good to know, though!"
"Yeah."
And then he moved towards me and I thought he was going to hug me (he didn't). I looked up into his face, and he smiled and said
"What?"
And we talked like that for awhile, but then the bell rang and he was gone. And now I feel so much better. It's absolutely incredible the things that closure can do for you. I am sure now that I can move on completely, we can become normal friends/bandmates, and thing will be, in general, better. Now I won't have to feel shitty when we don't talk in the hall, and I just have this feeling it's going to be much more okay now.
But I still don't want to live here.
"I'm sorry, but you're not sixteen..." and I don't know if I imagined it, but maybe he looked a little sad.
"It's okay."
"It's good to know, though!"
"Yeah."
And then he moved towards me and I thought he was going to hug me (he didn't). I looked up into his face, and he smiled and said
"What?"
And we talked like that for awhile, but then the bell rang and he was gone. And now I feel so much better. It's absolutely incredible the things that closure can do for you. I am sure now that I can move on completely, we can become normal friends/bandmates, and thing will be, in general, better. Now I won't have to feel shitty when we don't talk in the hall, and I just have this feeling it's going to be much more okay now.
But I still don't want to live here.
posted by Sarah at 6:08 PM
2 Comments:
I was reading your blog and I can definiately relate. Guys can be so messed up at times and even though I am not as old as you, I can definiately say I have pretty much given up on guys. I thought it was funny your a cancer too and in a band. My blog in punkdintheeastcoast.blogspot.com so check it out.
Ellie
Living in D.C. isn't all that great Seattle would be a nice place for me to try..
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