I miss him. Good lord I miss him. I called him at around 12:30 today, waking him up. I asked him if he wanted to ski, he said he was busy. i stayed on the phone for maybe 5 minutes longer. At least 3 of those minutes was spent in silence. We're going to get together to try to practice on Friday or Monday. I think I might ask him about why things are so awkward now. I don't understand how it happened. I just don't understand.

My heart has been very heavy lately.