Today I couldn't look at him without crying. I felt like dying the whole day. Lunch was the worst. I cried twice, and at the end of it I couldn't stop. I spent 5th period in the library, crying my eyes out in a corner (I didn't skip. My teacher had given me a pass. He is very understanding) and then reading sections of The Once and Future King for comfort. I didn't eat the whole day, because I wasn't hungry and I also felt a little sick.

I just got back from Luna's. I finally ate and we watched American Beauty. God. That film is so fucking beautiful.

I miss him so much. I want him back so bad. How much longer does this have to last?