halloween this year kind of sucked. i couldn't find anyone to hang out with, and i felt lonely and neglected and sad, even when i gave candy to the two trick or treaters we got. i sat in my room feeling like i wanted to cry, thinking about him and listening to "the look of love" by isaac hayes over and over. i liked hearing him say "you can tell from the vibrations. from that...look. you're so warm, you're so mellow, you're so sweet..." in that thick croony voice of his. i wrote in my diary and did my homework and then i went to my church and watched batman begins and ate popcorn and candy and i felt kind of fat and i wanted to cry. and then i went to school today and he was there and he was sweet like usual and when i walked by without saying hi to him because he was with his other friends he looked me right in the eye and later that day we became each others bitches and i didn't see him after school because he was at marching band practice and the magic-8-ball said he wanted to be more than friends and that he most certainly thought about me but wouldn't answer if it was in a romantic way and said that he didn't want to make with me and i am a loser.