I've been going with Kris the last few days. At first it was nice, but already he's too clingy and needy. I just want to shake him off. I'm not even signing onto MSN right now because he's going to be on and he's going to IM me. We have a much better dynamic as friends. Maybe it's just that we've been friends for too long to convert it into a different kind of relationship.

But part of it is also that I just really, really don't want to be in a relationship right now. I want to be able to look at guys and flirt and be able to really act and feel sexy for more than one person. Feel like anyone who wants me can have me. I don't want to be reserved right now.