brown eyes, you're the only song i want to hear

he's home. he's home, and he hasn't emailed me. he changed his MSN tag, and he didn't email me. i wrote him an email, it was kind of intense, and then i wrote what was basicaly an ''i'm sorry'' email, and that was two days ago, and i havn't heard from him. i'm falling apart at the seams. i can't focus on anything, i can't sleep, and when i do, i have these horrible dreams about him. my tear ducts are overflowing.

did i do something? does he not love me anymore? the only thing i can think of is that my semi-intense email scared him, and now he doesn't know what to say. i'm on MSN right now, but he hasn't signed on. i hope i can talk to him today, hope i can work things out, but i'm bracing myself for the fact that i might have to end it. and i don't want to, because i'm still tottaly stuck on him. everything i write is sappy and horrible. i just want him to come back...