sleepovers suck
spent the night at Emily's last night. Anna came to. we watched garden state, which i loved, and which made me cry more than i ever have during a movie in my life. and then we watched ghost world, which was ok, but Seymour reminded me of me, what with the records and old man clothes. i sat on top of Emily's sister's punching bag, and marveled at the fact that some people could be as tall as how tall i was whilst sitting on top of the punching bag. earlier that day we had gone to carkeek park and i took a ton of pictures, some of which i will post.
Anna and Emily have really been getting on my nerves lately. i mean, i know i'm angered easily and all, but still. every time i say something, the two of them together contradict me.
"joel doesn't have a porno stash."
"oh my god, yes he does!!!! every 13 year old boy has one!!!"
"look, i know joel a HELL of a lot better than the two of you."
"so?"
"have you ever been over to his house? have you ever been into his room?"
"no."
"well then, how would you know?"
"because every 13 year old boy has one,"
and it just kind of continued on like that for about 15 MINUTES. they do shit like that ALL THE FUCKING TIME. shit like that together, at the exact same time. it's as if the world will end if they agree with me. and they can't make a decent point. i'll say something, they'll argue, i'll argue back, and they'll look at each other and sigh. whenever i'm with the two of them, i feel like the 5th wheel. they'll walk down the street fucking holding hands, and i'll just kind of hang back. and then later on they talk about how much they fucking miss me, and wonder why they never see me anymore?!?!?!?!?!?!?!? WHAT THE FUCK??? and then, whenever they sit down and have a conversation, such as they did at two in the morning last night, they'll do all the talking, and i'll just kind of sit and stare and get lost in my own world. they don't even talk about interesting things. 2/3 of the time, they're complaining and sympathizing to each others situations. like, oh no, emilys mom is curious aobut where she goes!!! OH NO!!! WE CAN'T HAVE THAT!!! NOT WHEN YOU'RE ALLOWED TO GO WHERE EVER YOU WANT!!!! and hwo its so unfair that her 16 year old sister doesn't get all the horrible stuff like Princess Emily does. or anna decides to complain for the hundreth time about how hard it is to be a lesbian. and then emily will complain about not having a boy. i mean, sure i complain sometimes to, but i'll just say something like "i'm going to meet a pretty mod boy record collector at the zine library, and we'll sit on their couch and talk about the thurston moore interview we read from 1995." yeah sometimes i'll go "i want a boy!" but i don't go around being all stupid about it. i mean, emily deserves to not have a boy for being so god damn picky. so after awhile, they ask me why i'm not talking. i say i dunno, and join in, but then immediately i say something wrong they both kind of do their little "oh my god you're wrong" thing where they raise their voices and take on the tone that says "sarah, you're a crazy crack-whore." and so, out of nowhere, i just scream about how they need to shut the fuck up because it gets really annoying to be contradicted all the time. and then, they just say sorry, are silent for a couple of seconds, and then start fucking complaining again.
i am seriously thinking about how i need to expand my horizons and meet more different people who arn't anna, emily, and joel. the three people i hang out with outside of school. i hang out a bit with miranda and kelly, whom i enjoy the company of, so they can stay. i mean, i love joel to death, but he gets soooooooooooooooo boring. when we hang out, we don't talk. we put on a record and read, or watch a movie. and he usualy ends up sleeping. he never fucking talks. i'm sitting there and i'm thinking "jesus fucking christ. say something! do you think i dig being the only one talking here???" sky i like, but we never hang out outside of school and whenever we do hang out he always asks why i hate nirvana, green day, new modest mouse, etc. its the same with reed. riley makes fun of me to much, even if it is just in a friendly way. it's annoying to not be able to anything without being told that you're stupid.
maybe i should pursue a friendship with Sam. he likes good music and he's kind of nerdy. he's quiet but he talks. i bet he could be interesting.
my friends annoy the fucking hell out of me.
Anna and Emily have really been getting on my nerves lately. i mean, i know i'm angered easily and all, but still. every time i say something, the two of them together contradict me.
"joel doesn't have a porno stash."
"oh my god, yes he does!!!! every 13 year old boy has one!!!"
"look, i know joel a HELL of a lot better than the two of you."
"so?"
"have you ever been over to his house? have you ever been into his room?"
"no."
"well then, how would you know?"
"because every 13 year old boy has one,"
and it just kind of continued on like that for about 15 MINUTES. they do shit like that ALL THE FUCKING TIME. shit like that together, at the exact same time. it's as if the world will end if they agree with me. and they can't make a decent point. i'll say something, they'll argue, i'll argue back, and they'll look at each other and sigh. whenever i'm with the two of them, i feel like the 5th wheel. they'll walk down the street fucking holding hands, and i'll just kind of hang back. and then later on they talk about how much they fucking miss me, and wonder why they never see me anymore?!?!?!?!?!?!?!? WHAT THE FUCK??? and then, whenever they sit down and have a conversation, such as they did at two in the morning last night, they'll do all the talking, and i'll just kind of sit and stare and get lost in my own world. they don't even talk about interesting things. 2/3 of the time, they're complaining and sympathizing to each others situations. like, oh no, emilys mom is curious aobut where she goes!!! OH NO!!! WE CAN'T HAVE THAT!!! NOT WHEN YOU'RE ALLOWED TO GO WHERE EVER YOU WANT!!!! and hwo its so unfair that her 16 year old sister doesn't get all the horrible stuff like Princess Emily does. or anna decides to complain for the hundreth time about how hard it is to be a lesbian. and then emily will complain about not having a boy. i mean, sure i complain sometimes to, but i'll just say something like "i'm going to meet a pretty mod boy record collector at the zine library, and we'll sit on their couch and talk about the thurston moore interview we read from 1995." yeah sometimes i'll go "i want a boy!" but i don't go around being all stupid about it. i mean, emily deserves to not have a boy for being so god damn picky. so after awhile, they ask me why i'm not talking. i say i dunno, and join in, but then immediately i say something wrong they both kind of do their little "oh my god you're wrong" thing where they raise their voices and take on the tone that says "sarah, you're a crazy crack-whore." and so, out of nowhere, i just scream about how they need to shut the fuck up because it gets really annoying to be contradicted all the time. and then, they just say sorry, are silent for a couple of seconds, and then start fucking complaining again.
i am seriously thinking about how i need to expand my horizons and meet more different people who arn't anna, emily, and joel. the three people i hang out with outside of school. i hang out a bit with miranda and kelly, whom i enjoy the company of, so they can stay. i mean, i love joel to death, but he gets soooooooooooooooo boring. when we hang out, we don't talk. we put on a record and read, or watch a movie. and he usualy ends up sleeping. he never fucking talks. i'm sitting there and i'm thinking "jesus fucking christ. say something! do you think i dig being the only one talking here???" sky i like, but we never hang out outside of school and whenever we do hang out he always asks why i hate nirvana, green day, new modest mouse, etc. its the same with reed. riley makes fun of me to much, even if it is just in a friendly way. it's annoying to not be able to anything without being told that you're stupid.
maybe i should pursue a friendship with Sam. he likes good music and he's kind of nerdy. he's quiet but he talks. i bet he could be interesting.
my friends annoy the fucking hell out of me.
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