Hello from Flagstaff

I move to Arizona tomorrow. I feel awful. And excited. I keep crying. God I will miss this city.

I leave in a week. Late at night I get terrified, and I want to cry but I can't. Fuck I am going to miss Seattle. This is the most beautiful, wonderful city in the world... from Google Earth, Flagstaff just looks like a big piece of dirt. But I am sure it has its beauty. I mean, I am the one who fell in love with it, or at least the surrounding area, two and a half years ago.

In 11 days I will wake up and go to the airport and get on a plane and fly over several states and land in Phoenix, AZ and drive for two and a half hours to Flagstaff, AZ where I will start a new life.
I am leaving behind my friends and my city and my family and the best person I have ever dated and everything I have ever known.
For awhile I was scared, then I just wanted to get it over with, and now I do not want it to happen and I am terrified.
What have I done.



It's probably just the fact that it's 2:30 in the morning.